A Surge of Creativity, A Battle of Words

It’s been almost two weeks since my last blog post, and so much has happened that I don’t even know where to start. The days have been filled with creativity, emotions, decisions, and hard work—both in my personal life and in my writing. And even though it feels overwhelming at times, I can’t help but be proud of myself.

My Fantasy Book: A Journey Taking Shape

My book—my fantasy story—is going really well. As of today, I have 262 pages, and it’s truly becoming the story I always envisioned. Every twist, every moment, every revelation feels carefully placed, and I’ve been brainstorming like crazy to make sure it all fits together the way I want it to. Writing this book hasn’t been easy, but it has been rewarding. There are parts that are extremely important to the plot, parts that hold so much weight that I’ve had to sit down and think for hours before putting them into words. But when they finally click, when they finally feel right, the satisfaction is indescribable.

I always knew this story would be something I poured my heart into, but I didn’t expect it to become this personal. It’s more than just a fantasy; it’s a world I’ve built from my emotions, a place where I can channel my thoughts, fears, and hopes. And watching it unfold—watching it grow into something bigger than I ever imagined—is a feeling I can’t even describe.

A Book for My Father: The Hardest Decision

Not long ago, I made a difficult decision: to write my book for my father in English. This was not an easy choice. Writing about something so deeply personal in a language that is not my native tongue felt unnatural at first. It felt like I was stripping my words of their rawest form, of the way I have always thought and felt.

But when I started writing, I realized something. As much as I love my language, as much as it carries weight and emotion for me, English allows me to shape my thoughts in a way that feels right for this book. Romanian is beautiful, but I struggled to make my emotions feel as powerful as I wanted them to be. And so, I switched. And honestly? I think I did the right thing.

Even though I’ve only written three chapters, they carry so much of me. They are short, but they are filled with meaning. And now I find myself at a crossroads: should I merge them? Should I leave them as they are? Writing this book is incredibly hard, not because I lack the words, but because I feel too much. My motivation, my ideas, my passion—everything is so much bigger than the words I manage to put on the page. It’s frustrating at times, but I know that every word, no matter how slow, is worth it.

Returning to Wattpad After 12 Years

And because apparently, I can’t stop creating, I’ve decided to return to Wattpad after 12 years. It’s surreal to think about how long it’s been since I last wrote something there. But now, I’m back, and I’m writing another fantasy story—one that I think will be shorter and updated weekly.

This project is something I’m also really excited about. I love how it started, I love where it’s going, and I love that I get to share it with others as it unfolds. Writing a book is one thing, but sharing it in real time, watching people react to it as it grows—that’s something entirely different. And it’s something I didn’t realize I missed.

I don’t know what’s happened to me these past few months. Maybe it’s because I’ve suppressed this part of me for so long that now it’s all rushing to the surface at once. And honestly? It’s a lot. It’s overwhelming. It’s hard to deal with this much creativity, this much emotion, this much drive all at the same time. But at the same time, it feels right.

Creativity Has Always Been a Part of Me

I’ve always been a creative person. Ever since I was little, I had an affinity for things that required imagination. I can’t draw, I can’t paint, but I have always been good with words. I’ve always had this ability to take what I see, what I feel, and turn it into something.

And now, it’s like I’m rediscovering that part of myself all over again.

Balancing It All: Work, Writing, and Life

It’s been a while since I last wrote here, but that’s mostly because work has been hectic. Not in a bad way, though—actually, things are going really well. I love what I do, and it’s been nice to have something stable to focus on amidst all the chaos of my creative mind.

Right now, everything in my life is moving in a direction I’m happy with. My writing, my work, my personal life—they’re all demanding, they all require effort, but for the first time in a long time, I feel like I’m handling things well. I’m not drowning. I’m not suffocating. I’m moving forward, step by step, and I actually like where I’m going.

So, here’s to this journey. To writing. To creating. To finding myself again in the words I put on the page.

And to wherever this path takes me next.

With love, 

Me